29 July 2015

Talking to Myself on a Winter Evening

I wake every morning fighting consciousness. Leave me in the womb of sleep, I do not wish to be born this day or any day. My first breath is a scream of rage at the cold, my crusted eyes blinded by the pale light of the new winter sun.

22 February 2015

Couple of Random Half-Thoughts Waiting Completion

Observation is the most important skill, and it's really what separates humans from animals. Although I often like to think of a further distinction between humans and "domesticated primates" because some humans are still animals. And I say that without wanting to offend animals. I mean that their behaviors and thought processes are determined more by their mammalian instinct and biological (as well as social) emotional-psychological programming than it is by freedom of choice or the expression of spirit (however, I hold that the desire and ability to express one's spirit is biologically present. I also maintain that the expression of one's soul is freedom and therefore free-will).
"Seeing" is often equated with "knowing."
I can see clearly now.
I see what you're up to.
I saw the light.

Observation is tantamount to awareness.
Awareness is tantamount to control of both oneself and one's situation.
If knowledge is power, observation is the means to power. But there are two basic tools: the wide-angle lens and the telephoto lens. If you keep looking, eventually they both show the same thing. But don't stop looking.


Women have been subjugated and objectified by men because women are stronger and smarter than men.
A clever man finds a way to make his own weaknesses into strengths and the strengths of his rival into weaknesses.
Man's greatest weakness is woman. But within man lies an animal instinct of territoriality - he must be the one on top. We take away woman's sexual power by objectifying their bodies and negating their minds - minds that are much faster at making connections and processing emotions (of both self and others).
With time, women will come around again and "femininity" won't be equated with "weakness."

17 May 2014

Surrender Anyway

You've surely heard the phrase "let go, let God" at some point. Maybe you really believe in it. Maybe you think it's bullshit. But I'll tell you this: surrender anyway. You don't need to be a believer.

I've been going through a rough time myself lately, so I'll use that as an example. 

Everyone can feel a little bit lost sometimes. From time to time, everyone feels the pangs of regret, loneliness, grief, anger, and depression. Some people have a more difficult time pulling themselves out of the quagmire than others. Maybe it's a trick of memory or the ability to easily change of perspective, but some people just never seem to get bummed out for too long.

I'm not one of those people.

For me, it usually requires an extreme force of will - which, despite good intentions and a reasonable chance of success, I usually drive straight into the brick wall of futility.

07 May 2014

The USA is NOT a Christian Nation

"Your sect by its sufferings has furnished a remarkable proof of the universal spirit of religious intolerance inherent in every sect, disclaimed by all while feeble, and practiced by all when in power. Our laws have applied the only antidote to this vice, protecting all on an equal footing. But more remains to be done, for although we are free by law, we are not so in practice; public opinion erects itself into an Inquisition, and exercises its offices with as much fanaticism as fans the flames of an Auto-da-Fe."   - Thomas Jefferson

While browsing various media outlets in the USA, and especially online where we are all separated by a technological veil of anonymity even if we are not hiding our identities, it does not take very long to find the opinion, expressed very firmly as fact, that the USA is a Christian nation and founded upon Christian principles.

While I take no offense to to the idea of Christianity nor to the freedom of each person to hold and express his or her own individual faith, I am becoming increasingly frustrated with the ignorance which spreads such misunderstandings like dandelions taking root in the unkempt garden of the collective mind.

If your personal sentiments have not already labeled me a heretic or a liberal or a fool, then please share my words so that others may know that you are not alone. If you think me a fool, a liberal, or a heretic, then please continue reading so that you may judge my words with true integrity. May you all find peace!

The USA is not a Christian nation, nor was it founded upon principles belonging solely to Christianity.

01 April 2014

A Simple Choice

Just a simple choice, right now, between fear and love. The eyes of fear want you to put bigger locks on your doors, buy guns, close yourself off. The eyes of love instead see all of us as one.

     - Bill Hicks, Revelations (1993)

I've chosen to share some words that someone shared with me recently. They helped me out, maybe they'll help someone else:

I've been there, bro, and it's a shitty feeling. But the pain and sorrow you feel doesn't compare to that of your family and loved ones who truly couldn't deal with not having you in their lives...believe me, I know all this now and I'm a better man because of it. It, all these conversations, the feelings, thoughts, work, parents, brother, cousins, wedding, house, trials and tribulations...ALL happens for a reason.

And no matter how dark a place you find yourself, I promise when you put yourself in the position to see it from the point of view of people who feel the way about losing you that you feel about her, you will see the light no matter how far away or dim it seems. I swear, one way or another you will be stronger and the pain will seem like nothing compared to the pain you save your family and friends by losing yourself forever!

I know this to be FACT, cuz. And every day I think about my future and I feel no more pain from the past.