15 August 2016

Inaction is not an option

I was looking through some things and found a little note I wrote a while back. I haven't been as active here as I should be, but I always keep two things in mind:

  1. You can't rush perfection.
  2. It happens when it happens.
So, I'd like to share this here on my little soapbox.

I know that there are evil things happening
and that everywhere people are suffering.
I feel so helpless at times because I can’t do anything, or what I can do seems to have no meaning or effect. And the things that I can do, those things that I do - they seem almost empty and meaningless in the face of what others are going through.
Inconsolable as these feelings may seem, and as powerless as I may be to console, I have to put the light somewhere; to begin right in front of me with my own little tangible actions so that I can cultivate it and make it grow. So that I can grow larger than my own darkness.
If I can’t do that - if I can’t focus on the here and now and what’s in front of me and try to put love and joy into these little, perhaps banal things,
then I will lose my mind to madness and my heart to darkness, and I will despair and sink to a place I don’t want to be in again.
 So please remember:

From the moment that you exist, you are always doing.
You do not have a choice in the matter. You can't choose to "do nothing."
But you do have options, so choose to make any little thing better instead of just watching everything get worse. Start small and persist.
You're either living life or watching it pass by, but you're never doing nothing.

04 September 2015

I am the Anti-Pope

A favorite little story of mine goes like this: 
After a period of meditation, a neophyte monk excitedly and proudly describes to his teacher a vision of the Buddha that he experienced while meditating. 
"Don't worry!" replied his teacher. "With more practice, he'll go away."

29 July 2015

Talking to Myself on a Winter Evening

I wake every morning fighting consciousness. Leave me in the womb of sleep, I do not wish to be born this day or any day. My first breath is a scream of rage at the cold, my crusted eyes blinded by the pale light of the new winter sun.

22 February 2015

Couple of Random Half-Thoughts Waiting Completion

Observation is the most important skill, and it's really what separates humans from animals. Although I often like to think of a further distinction between humans and "domesticated primates" because some humans are still animals. And I say that without wanting to offend animals. I mean that their behaviors and thought processes are determined more by their mammalian instinct and biological (as well as social) emotional-psychological programming than it is by freedom of choice or the expression of spirit (however, I hold that the desire and ability to express one's spirit is biologically present. I also maintain that the expression of one's soul is freedom and therefore free-will).
"Seeing" is often equated with "knowing."
I can see clearly now.
I see what you're up to.
I saw the light.

Observation is tantamount to awareness.
Awareness is tantamount to control of both oneself and one's situation.
If knowledge is power, observation is the means to power. But there are two basic tools: the wide-angle lens and the telephoto lens. If you keep looking, eventually they both show the same thing. But don't stop looking.


Women have been subjugated and objectified by men because women are stronger and smarter than men.
A clever man finds a way to make his own weaknesses into strengths and the strengths of his rival into weaknesses.
Man's greatest weakness is woman. But within man lies an animal instinct of territoriality - he must be the one on top. We take away woman's sexual power by objectifying their bodies and negating their minds - minds that are much faster at making connections and processing emotions (of both self and others).
With time, women will come around again and "femininity" won't be equated with "weakness."

17 May 2014

Surrender Anyway

You've surely heard the phrase "let go, let God" at some point. Maybe you really believe in it. Maybe you think it's bullshit. But I'll tell you this: surrender anyway. You don't need to be a believer.

I've been going through a rough time myself lately, so I'll use that as an example. 

Everyone can feel a little bit lost sometimes. From time to time, everyone feels the pangs of regret, loneliness, grief, anger, and depression. Some people have a more difficult time pulling themselves out of the quagmire than others. Maybe it's a trick of memory or the ability to easily change of perspective, but some people just never seem to get bummed out for too long.

I'm not one of those people.

For me, it usually requires an extreme force of will - which, despite good intentions and a reasonable chance of success, I usually drive straight into the brick wall of futility.