Just a simple choice, right now, between fear and love. The eyes of fear want you to put bigger locks on your doors, buy guns, close yourself off. The eyes of love instead see all of us as one.
- Bill Hicks, Revelations (1993)
I've chosen to share some words that someone shared with me recently. They helped me out, maybe they'll help someone else:
I've been there, bro, and it's a shitty feeling. But the pain and sorrow you feel doesn't compare to that of your family and loved ones who truly couldn't deal with not having you in their lives...believe me, I know all this now and I'm a better man because of it. It, all these conversations, the feelings, thoughts, work, parents, brother, cousins, wedding, house, trials and tribulations...ALL happens for a reason.
And no matter how dark a place you find yourself, I promise when you put yourself in the position to see it from the point of view of people who feel the way about losing you that you feel about her, you will see the light no matter how far away or dim it seems. I swear, one way or another you will be stronger and the pain will seem like nothing compared to the pain you save your family and friends by losing yourself forever!
I know this to be FACT, cuz. And every day I think about my future and I feel no more pain from the past.